It’s your fault that we don’t talk. It’s your fault that I don’t know you anymore. And it’s your fault that I no longer look at you as a part of my family. You did this to yourself when you pushed me away and when you constantly accused me of doing things that I hardly did. You created this distance between us. You hear my name and you automatically think of a selfish person. Clearly, you do not know me; the only selfish person I see is you. You have no idea who I have become or the choices that I have made. You were never there to help me nor did you ever support me, so you do not have any reason to ridicule me and you do not have the right to judge me by what you think you see.
I open the front door, but I don’t see you. You walk in the room and all I can smell is the air that I’ve been breathing. I don’t even care to acknowledge your presence simply because you are not worth looking at. You have made yourself unapproachable because of the negative energy you bring to a single space. You killed our relationship the moment you become a cold-blooded, heartless “sister.”
The way I look at it, my biggest disadvantage is my appearance. I’m not saying that I’m the hottest chick on the block or anything, but I know I’m not ugly (at least with makeup). Ironically, I feel as if the way I look is the biggest barrier to creating a professional relationship with my peers. People portray me as a “blonde” (no offense to those who are naturally blonde)-as if I am someone who isn’t intelligent enough or an essential part to be a part of a team when in fact I am that person. I may not articulate well or memorize a list of vocabulary words, but I try to always give a meaningful response. I actually care about politics, law, schools, the environment, health, etc. Obviously, I don’t know everything, but I am most definitely eager to learn more. I want to know more. I know that I am capable of achieving my goals and accomplishments in the future yet some still look at me and only see a pretty-face, but I am so much more than what meets the eye.